Frustrated...

Tell me why when you hit a bump in your life path that all of the sudden, all of these people who normally could careless, all of the sudden want to be your best friend? - Do they REALLY care? - No, they are liers masquerading as friends. These are the same people who will love you while you are buying dinner, but when you're hungry & broke they don't see you. It's sad. I hate it. It frustrates me. Usually I can get a feel on these fakers, but sometimes... sometimes one slips by & get trusted, only to step on that trust. My trust has been stepped on & it hurts.

5 monthes...

5 monthes ago today, I married my best friend. He is such a wonderful, honest, kind, gentle man. I am blessed to have him & everyday I am grateful! I love you Mark!!! xxoo


Loving you is a like a song I replay
Every three minutes and thirty seconds of every day
And every chorus was written for us to recite
Every beautiful melody of devotion every night
It's potion like this ocean that might carry me
In a wave of emotion to ask you to marry me
And every word, every second, and every third
Expresses the happiness more clearly than ever heard
And when I play em, every chord is a poem
Telling the Lord how grateful I am cause I know him
The harmonies possess
A sensation similar to your caress
If you asking then I'm telling you it's yes
Stand in love, take my hand in love, God bless
**Taken from Lauryn Hill & Bob Marley "Turn Your Lights Down Low".**

One flaw in women...

One Flaw In Women

Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold
happiness, love
and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are
nervous. They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there
is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel and cheer when their
friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are
strong when they
think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run, call or e-mail you to show
how much they care
about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love.
They have compassion and ideas.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have vital things to say and everything to give.
HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,
IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.

When is a Man Educated?...

When he can look out upon the universe, now lucid and lovely, now dark and terrible, with a sense of his own littleness in the great scheme of things, and yet have faith and courage. When he knows how to make friends and keep them, and above all, when he can keep friends with himself.

When he can be happy alone and high-minded amid the drudgeries of life. When he can look into a wayside puddle and see something besides mud, and into the face of the most forlorn mortal and see divine.

When he knows how to live, how to love, how to hope, how to pray - is glad to live...and has in his heart a bit of a song.
-Joseph Fort Newton-

Ahhh, to be a kid again...

I'm sitting here wondering how we as adults get everything so messed up. I watch my daughter, who is 17 monthes old, and she is the defenition of what I wish the world would be. She is so innocent, so smart, so loving. She doesn't see skin color as anything other than shades of a beautiful rainbow. She doesn't care what God you worship, how much money you have - or don't have. She just cares if you are going to get on the floor & play. That's all. Very simple. It's such a wonderful thing. It makes me sad to think of the day when she will realize her little world of equality is not the way the world really is. But you know what? I can protect her world fo as long as I can, & I can raise her the way my mother raised me, to care for the human race, to only judge people by their actions, not by color, religion, sexual prefrence or economic stature. She also gave me the gift of faith. Faith that I can make a difference. And I will pass that on to my own daughter. I wish I could feel what she feels, if only for a day. To be so innocent & completely unaware of the turbulence in the world. Just happy, joyous & free. Hmmmm...

Red light - green light...

Do you ever have one of those days where the traffic lights are all green? You know, a smooth sailing, good moods, fresh coffee, lots of laughter, good feeling kind of day? Well, today is mine. I'm having a "green light" day. I don't know what it is about today, but I just have a feeling of balance & harmony inside & that is an amazing task for me! Not that I am a "gloom & doom" kind of girl... I just feel things, maybe to much. I see the wrong, the hunger, the hurt, the suffering through out the world & human kind & it effects me. I don't "let" it, it just does. So I offten have a heavy heart & a bit of sadness in my eyes, but I am also blessed with the most wonderful people in my life. And no matter what, I can always find joy in them & they can always make me smile. But today I have the gift of balance. And damn it, I am going to enjoy the hell out of it! I hope you are having a joyous, balanced, "green light" kind of day, too! Hugz 2 all.

Heaven welcomes a new Angel...

Monday January 30th, 2006 Coretta Scott King died. She was 78 years old.

Coretta was a defender of what is good & what SHOULD be. She carried on the fight for Civil Rights after her husband, Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr was so brutally killed. It didsn't matter age, race, creed, religion, sexual preference, Coretta believed in eqaul rights for all people. Let's keep the fight alive. Maybe if enough of us stand up, people will start to listen.

God Bless Coretta Scott King. May she rest in peace & harmony with her husband.